Real talk

This might be a little banter that could’ve been resolved inside my head but why do that when I can have the rest of you join in on my scattered thoughts. I’m not sure if I am making up excuses or if my mental health has reached a point of no return. Struggling with not being able to work is a bit of a stressor when living in The Maldives. If you are from here then I don’t have to explain it but if you are not a local then let me give it to you as short and sweet as I can. The money you make grinding your bottom half off won’t get you half of what you need to make ends meet when you have bills to pay. Most of us don’t own our own homes so we have the shorter end of the stick. Of course, people still make it work while struggling and I have nothing but mad respect for them.

All I have been doing today is bugging whether I’m like my mom or my dad when it comes to work ethics. My mom has been working her whole life since after she finished school and well my dad? It’s a bit tricky with him. From the stories I have heard he was a proper architect back in his day but for as long as I remember he did nothing but leach off of my mom. Stay at home dads are of course not a problem but the issue with mine was that he never did anything helpful around the house or with the kids. He was a capable guy but he just never did anything productive after a certain point. He was slobby, selfish, and scathing. Mom on the other hand is diligent, she does the work and puts the food on the table while taking care of her four kids. The only time she went to work late was probably when I woke up late to go to school as she had to drop us off before she went in to work. My bad, I didn’t hear the end of it that day because my mom takes pride in getting things done on time, she definitely is a force to be reckoned with.

Moving on to me, I don’t have much work experience. Had a couple jobs that I couldn’t hold down for more than three months. Personally, I just can’t get myself to take work seriously like the rest of the world and I just want to know if there are at least a few people that can relate to me and help me understand why this is. Sometimes I feel like it is because I don’t know everything about the field that I’m interviewing for, because I will have to take harsh comments from superiors and I get demotivated faster than anything. Or maybe I am someone who needs my time and space to do things I find joy and peace in. Personally, this is the option I like the most but I think I could also just be depressed. Is now the right time to discuss? Or am I actually doing okay and stressing out because the older generations are telling us that an 8-5 is the right way?

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Lassu

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